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Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Manic Twin Peaks

Well, I thought I was coming off mania when I posted back on June 19th. It turns out I had another manic run lasting about two weeks.

I thought I was coming off the last mania but it seems it was just the lull before another storm. I came crashing off this entire manic episode starting on July 4th. It was my worst Fourth of July ever.



As many of you can relate, I did a lot of fun, crazy, bizarre, and risky things while manic. Praise God there were no catastrophes during those days.

Alcohol is the devil during manic events. It adds fuel to an already hot flame. While I used alcohol for depression symptoms (back in 2010 and before) it provided me an escape. But during mania it conjures up adventure, fun, and confidence.

The list of things I did on this manic ride is long and mostly not publishable, but here are a few:
  • hung out with local homeless brothers;
  • lost two sets of car keys;
  • made friends with the local store owners;
  • planned and made arrangements for road trips I never took; and
  • bought useless stuff like sunglasses that take video while wearing them.
Now things have settled down to some sort of normalcy. I weaned myself off alcohol on my own. I did it using an article on How to Taper Off Alcohol that I found. I recommend reading it if you are having alcohol withdrawal problems.

Well, that's it for now. Not sure when I'll be posting again. I intend to keep this blog going but my disorder is making it difficult. I hope life is treating you all well and you are not being consumed by bipolar disorder. 

4 comments:

  1. It is incredibly difficult to dig yourself out of where you were so you deserve a pat on the back for that. All the best to you.

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  2. Hi Middle - It's been tough and will probably get harder as the post-mania depression sets in. I'm trying my best to keep it away but long, severe depression has followed my prior three manic episodes. Thanks for the kind word. Take care, Jeff

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  3. Hi Jeff, I understand what you mean about the mania, but as I have Bipolar Disorder Type 2, I get a lot more lows than highs, sometimes I wish it were the other way around. During my highs though, I howl at the moon, go on spending sprees buying things I have no use for, walk funnily intentionally, as if I'm dancing, laugh uncontrollably and do other things, so yes, I do get what you mean, and how you feel. When I have a manic episode, I tend to level out fairly quickly for a few days, followed by deep depression. I hope you come out of this time relatively well, and no depression sinks in, or if it does, hope it's not unbearable. Susan :)

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    1. Susan- Thanks for providing your version of the mania/depression ride we live. I have heard BP2 folks have much more depression than the BP1s. I'm BP1 but more like you with much more depression than mania. As of today it is trying to creep in. I stay vigilant, pray, and use my other coping skills to keep it bay. Thanks for reading and your comment. - Jeff

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